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It has been a while since I last updated my blog. I had very busy weeks and I'm still not yet free because of all the paper works and orals I need to do this week. But still, I just want to have a break from all of them and have a little time for my blog.

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For the past few weeks, I've become uncertain on what I want to be in the furture. I really don't know what is happening to me that all of a sudden, I've become unsure of what I really want to be in the future.
When I was around 8 or 9 years old, I wanted to work in the government just like my favorite godmother. I'm really not sure why I wanted to be like that but as far as I can remember, I was just heavily influenced by my godmother. I wanted to work in the government and do all the things she does in her office. However, when I reached high school and until first year college, all my eyes were set of being lawyer. I guess, my debate experiences in high school really made me look forward to it as my career. I got addicted to tv shows like Ally Mcbeal and The Practice where they show the different stories of being a lawyer. I was all in the mood for reading and learning about the law, the difference between what's constitutional and not, what's the different ways of litigation, and others. I was really sure back then that being a lawyer would be my future. I was even looking on the net about the guidelines on how to enter law schools like Columbia, NYU, and even Yale.
But all of these things suddenly became unsure when I was able to shift to Political Science degree. I started to appreciate the different lenses of power, the different approaches in studying politics, the different political philosophies, the decentralization of the government, etc. All of these things started to capture my attentions and that i started to be having fun whenever I read and analyze these things. Thus, I started to like it and even asked for the guidelines for applying for the polsci honors or AB/MA Political Science Career Track.
So right now, I'm really confused which track to choose. I still wanted to be a lawyer but Political Science opened my doors to new possible careers like International Relations or teaching in the Academe. And the worst thing is that I'm still running around with uncertainties even if I need to decide what i really want to be in the future by the end of the semestral break. Oh well, I guess the whole of my Semestral break would be the time for me to think and finally decide...

posted by wEn @ 12:37 PM